today, is Monday, my 5th week in new company. I declared i'm now 1 month old in this company.

this morning, i started off my day with a congratulation note to myself for able to survive here for a month.

it is not easy here. a totally diferent environment, culture, working style from where i was coming from. i'm very stressful here.but if u ask me do i feel regret for making this move, this decision, i will tell you firmly, No, i didnt.

being an always positive me, or if you would like to call it naive, i'm finding thousands ways to convince myself, i'm not at the worst even though i'm facing lots lots lots of challenges and obstacles.

challenges are something send by the God, as a mean to test or act as a reminder to us. in my current case, i found both in it.

A test, to test if i am mature enough to handle all the situations by myself with my experience for being a human for 27 years and also being a working adult who has been working for 5 years, who earned a little bit recognition in the previous workplace.obviously, i'm still working hard to achieve something i thought i could achieve. and that is also why i can feel ton of stress is on me.

As a reminder, to remind me how blessedness i am.whenever i'm in dilemma, i have my family members who support me always with their love, especially my mom. She listens to all my complaint whenever i call and try to advise me in her way. And, there is the other person, who is now become the most important person in my life, my husband.

He, always be the one that listen to me day and night, repeatedly, the same problem during the time i have problem dealing with my works.No matter in what mood he is, whether being frustrated by many other things, or facing problems with his own work, he surely will render all his support to me. Advise me, tolerate with me, hand-hold me...

Is really true that challenges send by the God is also a reminder. Without that, most of the time i'm just easily blinded by other things, until i forgot to cherish what i am having, especially LOVE from my husband.We may not 100% loving everyday and night, but one thing i can be sure is, he is always there whenever i'm in dilemma.

I want to say Thank U to him here although he may not see this. Thank U, dar from the deepest in my heart.

Being positive,i have 2 stories to share which i always remind my husband also. 1 is chinese idioms and the other 1 i read from somewhere.

Let me share it other day. 5.19pm already, need to continue some works before tomorrow comes!

suddenly realised i'm a person with big love (da ai).
just love to share good things with ppl..
like the feelings when i bring happiness to ppl surrounding me..when they are happy, my happiness is doubled.
telling a stupid joke, forwarding some funny emails, is always my pleasure.
i'm real. and feel happy when others have good things happened at them.
just like wat was happening recently - mummy ki gave birth to little cowboy, cayden. she is hang-fook. rather than saying i envy ppl most of the time, i really feel glad for them. i can feel their happiness.

next, i'll be grabing every chance to make myself as hang-fook as her - having my own happy family...of coz with baby :)
i'm ready.
pls, God bless

finally, i can feel that i'm really doing something for my wedding..why said so?
because, i went to scout for bed, bedframe, and talked to the contractor on the room and bathroom.
this few things might be sap sui, but then, it means alot to me!
after few months of not doing anything, i've done something! yeah!

also, have clearer pic that what b&s in law will and will not move out from the house..this save alot of our monies! the fridge, washin machine, tv and airconds...

thank GOD, i know YOU have been taking good care of me.. i will try my best for all the things i promise to YOU. thank YOU!
*this GOD here is my GOD, not kam kam's one!

i like the bedframe, it's something special! i really like it. Most importantly, hb like it very much!

besides that,
sofa, mil agreed to giv them to some1.
dining table, mil agreed to give it to some1 and we can have the rectangular 1.

:) smile satisfiedly from the bottom of my heart. although this is not 100% as what i wanted it to be, but atleast, not a big gap anymore.

again thank GOD, i know YOU have been taking good care of me.. i will try my best for all the things i promise to YOU. thank YOU!

i should share the good news with mom... :)

I'm very sleepy.
I'm feeling this since this morning.
Long time never had this level of sleepiness.
What made me so sleepy?

Coz hb and i had some drinks last nite.
2 big white and 1 big black, shared by two of us.
Ugghhhh....thinking of it now, feel like wanna vomit.
Overdose! hb vomitted this afternoon while driving..hahaha..kena the body of the car, yucks!!!

Thought of going to club this friday, but bcoz of last nite 2 white and 1 black, i'm reconsidering this! Just feel like i cant drink anymore! yucks yucks..

**hb vomitted = padan muka, coz after sharing the 3 big bottols, he drank another 2 cans. hahahah......

i learnt this phase from the drama, burning flame 3.

out of difficulties, makes miracle.
排除万难,就会有奇迹出现。

a meaningful phase.

miracle, will just happened out of sudden?

the fact is, no.

own effort is needed. we will need to make ourselves out from the difficulties.

read the phase again, out of difficulties, makes miracle. 排除万难,就会有奇迹出现。

let's work hard together. u and me.

i'm sure miracle will come one day.

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If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home. If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

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Abit sentimental today..watched tsiong zoi sum just now after woke up from nap.
Having running nose..thus worked half day only and took nap after taken the very wing flu medicine.

Never dare to finish watching the whole series. heard alfred died.
I'm afraid i wil cry..as if my biz..and i'm not supposed to..it's just drama..really non of my biz
That's y i said i'm sentimental..or a bit too sentimental..i afraid after i cried, i will really feel the pain. this is no good...

Viewing tam's blog..it reminded me, i supposed to go taiwan with them, this july...they are going on 19.7.09. i'm sad.....

Dear yau, tyng and tam, sorry, i didn't mean to fly the aeroplance and hit u gals..

BUT, since i cannot change the fact, i can only....sit here.....wait for my souvenirSSSSS!!!!

hahahahhaaaa.....thanks in advance!! :P

Enjoy ur holiday!!!!! MUST miss me!!! ** so that u gals remember to buy me souvenirs!!!